Trust
Time seems to be passing really quickly, it's almost April already. Despite that i often think to myself how long the weeks seem to be, somehow time slips by even when we may not be fully enjoying it. It's so funny how our mid-semester break is so early on but hey it's a holiday after all and there is so much to be thankful for :)) Although my to-do-list seems to be never ending but i am trying to remind myself to set aside time to relax and enjoy and it seems to be doing my mood good. But also, this has given me a lot of time to reflect on my life. Recently i have been listening to the newest young and free album and it has constantly been on replay. I have to say i love this album as much as the last and it has really ministered to me ( HILLSONG WHY ARE ALL YOUR SONGS SO GOOD :') ). I just wanted to share the lyrics of the song that has really spoken to me and i hope for all of you going through something difficult or impossible, that this song may bring you comfort.
"Trust"
When it doesn't go my way
I know that it is not the end
I'm trusting you have better plans
I haven't even dreamt of yet
I know that You are for me
When everything's against me
I put all my hope in You
Jesus I will trust You
I will trust you
I know you never fail
I will trust you
Jesus I will
Jesus I will
I don't know how the story ends
But I know that You finished it
I'll close my eyes and just let go
And fall into my only Hope
There's safety in the falling
When I surrender fully
I put all my hope in You
Jesus I will trust You
I will trust you
I know you never fail
I will trust you
Jesus I will
Jesus I will
The only thing I know
Is God you're in control
In every little detail
You are close
I'll never be alone
Here in the unknown
The power of Your Presence
Fills my soul
Now everything I know
Is God you're in control
In every little detail
You are close
I'll never be alone
Here in the unknown
The power of Your Presence
Fills my soul
No matter what you are going through, always remember that God's promise is to never leave us or forsake us. Trust that he has much greater things installed for you and always God allows certain things to happen for the greater good according to his will. " In your brokenness i will make you whole".
Love,
Shaina :)
Having a dayre?
Hello guys hehe, you must be wondering another blogpost in one day? I know, I am truly amazed at myself too. Been really into writing journals recently as well, I guess my outlet has been writing :) I promise I will blog more often but recently, more personal issues have been placed upon my heart and i am thinking of keeping a dayre, somewhere I can share even the most simplest things- like how my day went. Then perhaps it wouldn't bore you guys as well :) Of course it would be more private and personal, so I wouldn't share with everyone. Before I end off, it's Monday today and I know for many it's the worst day if the week. Just remember everyday is a day The Lord has made, rejoice and be glad in it :') If you could start the day with a smile instead, just think about how different it will make other people's monday and yours as well heh. So goodnight guys, rest well and have a great week ahead!
Shaina
Will I ever get used to it?
Hello you guys, hope the first week of 2016 has been a good one for all of you :) My heart is heavy tonight and I guess it's not something that I really wanna share but yet I know if I kept it in, it's only going to make me feel worse. No one is really going to read this anyway but if you do, I'm sorry it's not going to be a happy one. It's so funny how the smallest things can trigger the things so deep within you. People would think after being away for two years, wouldn't it be easier to adapt back or maybe get used to being away? A few days ago, my brother enlisted into army and suddenly the house seems so quiet. Told my dad about it and I was reminded that shouldn't I be used to the silence by now. It's going to be even quieter when I get back so why is it I am suddenly not used to it again. And I guess internally having to adapt is necessary and essential but I wonder how long would it would take me to not be bothered by the silence. I don't think I will ever get used to it, maybe it's meant to be this way to make sure I return home at the end of my studies.
So silly how even as I type this out, I can still tear up. I wish I was stronger, I wish I didn't have to cry about this again. Now I understand why sometimes people choose not to come home, even as you are home, you leave your heart here. But when you leave, you either leave it behind or take it back with you and I think no matter how long time passes, it still hurts each time. You are probably thinking how silly I am, how emotional I am. That's probably true. If I could change this about myself, I would.
Thanks for listening nonetheless, I pray in the year 2016 I will be a stronger person, really. Goodnight guys.
Shaina
Bye 2015, Hello 2016
Happy New Year guys, it still feels so surreal how fast 2015 went by. Seeing the countless social media posts on the new year, it prompted me to really sit down and reflect on the year. What better than to pen down my thought into words right, just a warning that this post may be long, sappy and emotional (don't say I didn't warn you) :P Before my reflection starts, I just wanted to thank God for a good year. It has indeed been a year of God's favour and despite all the ups and downs, I am really thankful for 2015. Looking back on the resolutions that I set for myself, surprisingly I actually accomplished most of them! I wonder if now that I am older, I have learnt to set more realistic goals for myself haha :) 2015 has been a year of transition and growth, starting the first year of university and experiencing so many changes and experiences. But God has really been very faithful throughout all these, for the new community he has placed to help and protect me and also being my home away from home :') Also for giving me the opportunity to serve him and for revealing my purpose in placing me where I am. It definitely wasn't an easy year, God has taught me so many things last year, things that often left me so stressed out I wanted to breakdown and cry. But it has really changed me, to be stronger , to be wiser, to be more decisive and most importantly learning to wholeheartedly trust that God is in control of all things.
How could we end of the year not thanking the people we love right :') To everyone in my life, I thank God for you and 2015 wouldn't been the same without any of you guys! As clumsy as I am, or even as silly as I am and as annoying as I can be, thank you for loving me and accepting me for who I am ( I guess laughing at me is a way you all accept me right HAHA). To my dear family, thank you for your unconditional love and support in everything I do and for always being my number 1 supporter :) For always seeing the best in me no matter what bad or weird sides I have. To a special group of girls, I think words cannot express how blessed I am to have you all in my life. 2015 hasn't been an easy year for us collectively but having each other to walk alongside each of our own journey has really been God's blessing for us. Even as 2016 is a transition year for many of us, my prayer is that God will reveal his purpose for you girls and may you be called to do greater things for The Lord . I love you all so much and that includes all of your weird, crazy but loveable selves. Thank you for loving me even when I am the worse version of myself, blessed to be the shui jiao of the group hehe (this nickname is rubbing on me way too much). So many a time, we always take people for granted and we don't realise how precious they are until we lose them. So many people I would want to address and my heart aches even thinking about it. All of you are important to me and no matter, I hope all of you can see that I really care. Even as all of you has been a blessing to me, I hope I have been one to you too :)
My prayer for this year is that The Lord will use me mightily for his purpose. I commit the year ahead into your hands amen ❤️
Shaina
Thankful// A small but very important reminder
It amazes me how even the least significant things could teach you the biggest lessons. Even as I reflect on how the day has been, I am just so thankful and grateful to be alive, being able to live out God's purpose for me. It's so easy to take all these things for granted because more often we are way more blessed than we realise. The truth is that out there, there is so much evil and inhumanity in this world. Praying for all the souls out there who may not be as fortunate, that The Lord's peace and love be upon you. I pray that any suffering and pain out there, that The Lord be your comfort and strength. So undeserving but yet you loved us so much :') Look around you, remind yourself how blessed you are today.
Shaina
Late night thoughts// There's a reason why they say thoughts at 3 am are the truest
It's currently 3 am now and I'm lying in bed thinking and reflecting on how the day or even the week has been. Even as I am lying down, I could still feel my sunburnt shoulders and back stinging so bad
:( But to be honest I don't know what's worse, the physical pain or that my heart aches so much tonight.
Perhaps it has been like this for awhile now, but it really aches for some people, struggles and myself as well. So many things I wish I could do a bit more, care a bit more or hold the solution to various problems. I really try and try but sometimes it feels like it's never enough, feeling tired is okay but when you care so much it hurts, it makes you wonder.
Lord, I don't know what else to do anymore, please lead and guide me ahead. If my emotions could be described in words, perhaps 500 words would barely cover it. Really dislike how emotional I feel tonight, somehow it makes me feel more terrible than I was. Perhaps I should just sleep it off, to a better day tomorrow hopefully.
Shaina
Just hear me out just for a bit alright?
Hi guys,Just from the title of today's post, i guess i just have a lot on my mind. But at the same time, i don't exactly know where else to express myself so bear with me as i try to write it out in words okay?
So imagine this, the weather outside is sunny but cooling, the birds are chirping and all is right with the world. I wouldn't consider my life to be perfect but the worries and problems that i have are really not that large in comparison to the troubles of the world. I have a wonderful family and amazing friends who love me so much and each day i give thanks for placing all of them in my life. Basically, i am trying to say i am happy and i really am counting my blessings each day :') But there are some days where everything is right but yet on the inside it's like the complete opposite. Ever feel like there are days where you find it so hard to smile but yet to avoid making people worried or not willing to burden others with your emotions, you fake that smile. At the same time, you wonder if anyone would pick up on the subtle hints that you aren't as happy as you usually are. Well for me, that day would be today. Honestly, i don't know why, maybe stress is getting to me or perhaps it's the tiniest thing that perhaps wouldn't upset me on a normal day but it just did today. I really dislike feeling this way, i dislike having to fake that smile or even just wanting to curl up and hide from the rest of the world. Most importantly, i don't feel like myself at all and as much as anything, i want to be able to genuinely smile at all the little things in my life. I apologize if i am starting to sound like a sappy emotional girl, trust me i probably dislike myself more than you do right now.
But as i was scrolling through the news earlier, i was reading articles regarding the earthquake in Sabah. A group of primary school students and their teachers embarked on an expedition to KK and they met with an earthquake of 6.0 magnitude. So far, there has been one death and many who hasn't been uncounted for. My heart really went out to this group of people, i especially cannot imagine how it is for the loved ones of this group of people, how much grief and anxiousness they may be feeling. It's my prayer that the rest of the missing people will be found and that the peace and love of the Lord be upon the loved ones of all of these people.
Once again, this just reminded me how blessed i am to be alive and well. People are out there suffering tragedies while i am sitting here moping about the silliest things. So i just wanted to say, if you are having a bad day or just feeling moody, it's okay to feel down or even cry about it. Life isn't perfect and the journey definitely won't be easy. But always remember that we can choose to focus on the good rather than the bad and learn to smile even through the storm. More often than not, we always try to search for happiness elsewhere but remember that happiness always starts with yourself. So as the new day starts, choose to be happy because you hold the key to your happiness :)
And on another note, i feel better now, thanks for hearing me out today :')
Love,
Shaina
Name: Shaina Cheow
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