Having a dayre?
Hello guys hehe, you must be wondering another blogpost in one day? I know, I am truly amazed at myself too. Been really into writing journals recently as well, I guess my outlet has been writing :) I promise I will blog more often but recently, more personal issues have been placed upon my heart and i am thinking of keeping a dayre, somewhere I can share even the most simplest things- like how my day went. Then perhaps it wouldn't bore you guys as well :) Of course it would be more private and personal, so I wouldn't share with everyone. Before I end off, it's Monday today and I know for many it's the worst day if the week. Just remember everyday is a day The Lord has made, rejoice and be glad in it :') If you could start the day with a smile instead, just think about how different it will make other people's monday and yours as well heh. So goodnight guys, rest well and have a great week ahead!
Shaina
Will I ever get used to it?
Hello you guys, hope the first week of 2016 has been a good one for all of you :) My heart is heavy tonight and I guess it's not something that I really wanna share but yet I know if I kept it in, it's only going to make me feel worse. No one is really going to read this anyway but if you do, I'm sorry it's not going to be a happy one. It's so funny how the smallest things can trigger the things so deep within you. People would think after being away for two years, wouldn't it be easier to adapt back or maybe get used to being away? A few days ago, my brother enlisted into army and suddenly the house seems so quiet. Told my dad about it and I was reminded that shouldn't I be used to the silence by now. It's going to be even quieter when I get back so why is it I am suddenly not used to it again. And I guess internally having to adapt is necessary and essential but I wonder how long would it would take me to not be bothered by the silence. I don't think I will ever get used to it, maybe it's meant to be this way to make sure I return home at the end of my studies.
So silly how even as I type this out, I can still tear up. I wish I was stronger, I wish I didn't have to cry about this again. Now I understand why sometimes people choose not to come home, even as you are home, you leave your heart here. But when you leave, you either leave it behind or take it back with you and I think no matter how long time passes, it still hurts each time. You are probably thinking how silly I am, how emotional I am. That's probably true. If I could change this about myself, I would.
Thanks for listening nonetheless, I pray in the year 2016 I will be a stronger person, really. Goodnight guys.
Shaina
Bye 2015, Hello 2016
Happy New Year guys, it still feels so surreal how fast 2015 went by. Seeing the countless social media posts on the new year, it prompted me to really sit down and reflect on the year. What better than to pen down my thought into words right, just a warning that this post may be long, sappy and emotional (don't say I didn't warn you) :P Before my reflection starts, I just wanted to thank God for a good year. It has indeed been a year of God's favour and despite all the ups and downs, I am really thankful for 2015. Looking back on the resolutions that I set for myself, surprisingly I actually accomplished most of them! I wonder if now that I am older, I have learnt to set more realistic goals for myself haha :) 2015 has been a year of transition and growth, starting the first year of university and experiencing so many changes and experiences. But God has really been very faithful throughout all these, for the new community he has placed to help and protect me and also being my home away from home :') Also for giving me the opportunity to serve him and for revealing my purpose in placing me where I am. It definitely wasn't an easy year, God has taught me so many things last year, things that often left me so stressed out I wanted to breakdown and cry. But it has really changed me, to be stronger , to be wiser, to be more decisive and most importantly learning to wholeheartedly trust that God is in control of all things.
How could we end of the year not thanking the people we love right :') To everyone in my life, I thank God for you and 2015 wouldn't been the same without any of you guys! As clumsy as I am, or even as silly as I am and as annoying as I can be, thank you for loving me and accepting me for who I am ( I guess laughing at me is a way you all accept me right HAHA). To my dear family, thank you for your unconditional love and support in everything I do and for always being my number 1 supporter :) For always seeing the best in me no matter what bad or weird sides I have. To a special group of girls, I think words cannot express how blessed I am to have you all in my life. 2015 hasn't been an easy year for us collectively but having each other to walk alongside each of our own journey has really been God's blessing for us. Even as 2016 is a transition year for many of us, my prayer is that God will reveal his purpose for you girls and may you be called to do greater things for The Lord . I love you all so much and that includes all of your weird, crazy but loveable selves. Thank you for loving me even when I am the worse version of myself, blessed to be the shui jiao of the group hehe (this nickname is rubbing on me way too much). So many a time, we always take people for granted and we don't realise how precious they are until we lose them. So many people I would want to address and my heart aches even thinking about it. All of you are important to me and no matter, I hope all of you can see that I really care. Even as all of you has been a blessing to me, I hope I have been one to you too :)
My prayer for this year is that The Lord will use me mightily for his purpose. I commit the year ahead into your hands amen ❤️
Shaina
Name: Shaina Cheow
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