Reflections
Can't believe it is already February of 2015, wow the years really come and go. Seriously need to update more often, am so bad at keeping up with all this! Currently sitting on my bed, pondering about what lies ahead, my future, my relationships with other, my purpose? Honestly, I have been thinking so much I might have already planned my life til I'm 80. Hmmm, just kidding but the extent is mad. Is this how it feels to be growing up because if it is, I want to stay young forever. Does this make sense, I miss being busy sometimes because then maybe I won't feel like I am bothering my friends too much or that in this fast-paced world that I am keeping ahead with everyone else. Haha I must be crazy, complaining about all the free time I have, maybe I am idk. I am at a stage where I no longer know where to go, yes university is the typical answer but studying is not all that life holds. Please Lord, lead me to where you want me to go, I don't want to live life based on my own decisions. So many questions but yet many I do not hold answers to. I was talking to someone before and we were talking about relationships. Everyone holds that few criteria that they want in their future spouse etc but I realised that while growing up that criteria list lessens or in any sense becomes more practical. No one knows what kind of person you will end up marrying be it someone who is your ideal or someone you totally do not expect. Clearly, only God knows that answer and through everything I am so thankful knowing that God is in control of everything and I don't have to worry but trust him. Time is limited til I go back out there, so I truly want to spend each minute with all of you I love so so much. It may be annoying to you all how many times I want to meet you all but I won't be around to see your faces, to give you all comforting hugs each week and laugh with you all ❤️ So bear with me okay? :') xx,
Shaina
Name: Shaina Cheow
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